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] Bio-degradable Emotions?  What?
] [http://www.hackunix.org/~derekm/bio-degradable.txt]
] May 1, 2000
]

Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit.  I hate religion.  Stupid
fucking religion!  Jessica is really upset today...  I'll bet it has
something to do with something I said when I wrote her about a book she
gave me, Why I Believe.  My response was admittedly pretty harsh, and I'll
bet it's that that upset her.  Arg...  I hate these type o' situations...
I feel so amazingly bad, I almost wanna cry...  I probably would if I
weren't at work.

I've been sensing some weirdness between Jessica and myself lately.  It's
sorta awkward.  Gosh, I really like that girl so much.  If I were a
fundamentalist Christian or if she were an agnostic atheist, we'd be a
perfect match.  Why does religion have to be so stupid?  Maybe if I had
backed off early on I could have avoided hurting her...  I don't want to
hurt her.  I knew she was a Jesus freak from the start, but she didn't
know hardly any o' my thoughts on the predominator that is religion.

I must be honest...  I was very uneasy knowing she was a hardcore
Christian at first.  I almost called us off...  But she's /so/ awesome...
She is.  I accidently fell in love.  I wasn't out to fall in love with
her, but I did.  I often wonder what everything now would be like had I
called everything off...  Not that I don't like her because of her
beliefs, but because I know how the general Christian populations feel
about heretics like myself.

... Ahh ... I just got an email from her...  Hehe...  As usual, I was
wrong about what  upset her.  It's Amy.  I sorta feel better now.  I sort
of suspected that Jessica might be jealous about Amy and me...  Weird...
I dunno.